Chapter 127
Until now, Aquafuran was complete with “me.”
The world of “me” doesn’t need “you.” It’s enough to stand on one’s own.
As Siren, it was true that she had been completely immersed in her rediscovered self.
Having lived so long without self-awareness, she became completely absorbed in Aquafuran’s self as she merged with it.
It’s also true that only when I stand on my own can I look back at others.
‘A world where only I exist. In a life full of self-love and self-assurance… others are not needed. Because giving a part of myself to others inevitably results in losing a part of myself, it feels like a loss.’
Even though one has to give first to receive.
Even though there is someone who says they will give first, she hesitates.
Opening herself and accepting you.
‘Since this fear of loss has arisen… it must be different from before.’
She doesn’t want to lose Yasamin. She hopes he won’t disappear.
Selfish and wicked, she wanted him to stay the same while having no intention of giving herself.
“Love is such a difficult thing.”
“Why?”
“Just… giving myself and receiving as much as I gave. Finding happiness there. So, should I call it the act of filling the place where ‘me’ was removed with ‘you’?”
That was very strange.
Aquafuran’s self writhed, unable to comprehend that concept. As Siren, she understood, but it was difficult.
“Forget it. Just think about yourself.”
At that moment, Yasamin raised one eyebrow.
“Why are you trying to think so philosophically? It doesn’t suit you.”
“It doesn’t suit me?”
“That’s right. Just do whatever you want to do and live. It’s my part to love that you.”
What effect did last night have on this man?
Siren was dumbfounded by his appearance, which seemed to be relieved.
“Didn’t you hate me enough to want to kill me?”
“I hate you. I still do. I want to kill you and bury you inside me forever.”
“But?”
“I said let’s try to love just once. Before that. If you don’t run away… let’s try to love by letting go of everything just once.”
His calm voice wasn’t a feeling of giving up.
There was a sign of exhaustion, but he wasn’t cynical either.
He really seemed like someone who had accepted it.
And at that moment, Siren’s heart moved slightly.
Would this be called being moved?
It was a different feeling than being moved. Should it be called learning? His attitude, his way of speaking, his thoughts. All of it seemed better than hers… and she was surprised.
“Well, then let’s sleep a little more. There’s not much to do today.”
“What about you?”
“I’m going to go around the training ground a bit. I still have energy left.”
It was already a full-fledged morning.
The long, long night that had passed seemed to resemble their relationship, and Siren was filled with sentiment.
‘From now on, I hope only good things happen.’
Frankly, it had been very difficult. Now, she just wanted to smile.
Siren, who had fallen into a gentle sleep, had a dream.
It was a dream, as if her wishes had been drawn as they were, where everyone lived prosperously in the south, which had turned green again.
From that day on, each day was quite peaceful.
She had meals with Yasamin, Chris, Jin, and Pamilla, and sometimes Larisa and Ananta joined them.
Ananta had succeeded in making it rain for 3 minutes for the first time the other day, but she fainted on her feet, being too excited.
‘It’s a small thing, but if you look at each one, it’s a great development.’
Ah, the construction of the lake is also almost complete. It seems it will be finished in about three days, so all that’s left is to fill it with water.
Yasamin had already chosen the warriors to be stationed nearby, and the Aquafuran clan had sent a manager, so there was no need to worry about anyone poisoning it.
She would manage the water quality herself for the time being, but it seemed Ananta could take over from about a year later.
‘There’s nothing disturbingly annoying, to a frightening degree.’
Is it okay for things to go this well?
Today, Siren wore a dress dyed blue. It was made by layering several layers of fluttering fabric, which was completely different from what she wore in Wheelke, but this one suited her better.
Because it looked much freer.
Her long hair was loosely tied with silver ornaments and left hanging down, and with earrings, she became more natural and elegant than anyone else.
In fact, she didn’t usually dress up this much, but the reason she did today was because there was someone to see off.
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