Chapter 186
“Why are you like that, Rzel.”
“……”
“Do you feel strange? So do I.”
Theogrim said, kissing Arzeletta’s fingertips. A tremor was clear in Theogrim’s exhalation.
“It feels like a dream, Rzel.”
The corners of Theogrim’s eyes, which were smiling, were wet. The scar around his eyes was clearly flushed from the continuous excitement.
Arzeletta did not doubt his sincerity.
That was not what she wanted to ask.
But the words would not come out. It was the most awkward situation she had vaguely anticipated. It would be nice if Theogrim would read her predicament, but it seemed he was currently so immersed in his joy of being with her that he could not think of anything else.
“Um, Theo…”
Arzeletta opened her mouth with courage. Theogrim looked at her gently. It was a warm smile, as if to tell her to say anything.
“Um…”
Arzeletta also pulled down the corners of her eyes. Just like Theogrim, as if she was very happy, as if she was so delighted, as if there were no problems at all.
…So that this was just, like, no big deal in the midst of our perfect relationship.
“Th-that, My, My Lord…”
“……”
“When… can I see him…”
Arzeletta unconsciously avoided his gaze. Theogrim’s smile remained the same, but it felt frightful, as if only the temperature had dropped.
…It must just be her imagination.
Now Theogrim had her, he had confirmed that he had her body and mind.
Theogrim gave no answer. Arzeletta’s heart beat with anxiety. Feeling his touch as he tucked her hair behind her ear, Arzeletta opened her mouth with courage again.
“My heart… my heart is so uncomfortable…”
“……”
“That’s just, that’s all, Theo.”
Theogrim’s silence pressed on Arzeletta. Arzeletta smiled. As her smile brightened, the trembling of her light-green eyes also grew.
You promised me that if I gave you certainty, you would let me meet My Lord…
…She could not bring herself to say those words.
“I’m sorry, Rzel.”
Kissing her fingertips, Theogrim sighed. As if he was truly regretful.
“As I thought, not now.”
“But…!”
“Because you are too, too pretty for me to let you out, Rzel.”
Arzeletta desperately raised her head. Their gazes met head-on with Theogrim, who was looking at her as if he was observing her.
Arzeletta, who realized that her feelings had been too honest for a moment, pulled up the corners of her lips again. Theogrim pitifully stroked her ear as her eyes were becoming terribly wet at the same time as her lips were making a pretty effort to pull up.
“That…”
You promised…
The words she could not convey were pitifully hovering between her swollen lips.
Theogrim sighed and stroked the corners of Arzeletta’s eyes.
“You need to realize something about yourself. How… unbelievably beautiful you are.”
“……”
“Just one time might make you and Ragnar irreversible.”
“I-I’m your person, Theo.”
Arzeletta clung to him. The corners of her eyes lovingly drooped. It was a smile that would melt his heart just by looking at it.
“We proved it to each other, didn’t we? So…”
“That’s right. You did prove it.”
The hand that had been lovingly stroking her face stopped.
“You so perfectly proved… how genuine you are about Ragnar, Rzel.”
“……!”
Arzeletta inhaled her breath sharply. Theogrim grabbed her small face with both hands.
“Even while being held by me.”
“Ah, ahh…”
Everything shattered in that moment. Tears dripped down from Arzeletta’s empty eyes. Theogrim chuckled as he looked at her like a person whose soul had been shattered into pieces.
“I’m sorry, Rzel. I can’t let you go.”
“Theo, Theo…!”
“Let’s stay together just a little longer, because then you might truly be able to forget him.”
“Just once…”
“I will never let you be taken, never!”
Theogrim shouted like a crazy person and hugged Arzeletta. The deep scar on his back brushed against her fingertips.
“You can’t get out of here anyway now, Rzel.”
Theogrim said with a growl. Arzeletta was hiccuping like a person.
“Everyone is looking for you right now.”
At the next words she heard, Arzeletta blinked her empty eyes.
“Those crazy fanatics are looking for you, Rzel. Their eyes are bloodshot trying to find the maid who went in and out of the Lord’s private chambers, all of them.”
“……!”
“They even mentioned that she was wearing a black skirt. That means they will be swarming the hunchback’s slaughterhouse any moment. If they catch you, it’s over for you, Rzel. Everyone is looking for something. They need a place to pass on the blame for this anxiety!”
But even if she were to go through that, it would not be unfair.
Because she… was indeed a heretic who had corrupted their holy Lord and cast a curse of death upon him.
“This time, they won’t leave you alone.”
“……”
“It’s perfect timing. We were going to end this saint act and maid act anyway.”
“I have to see My Lord…”
Arzeletta finally said what she had to say. She no longer felt any shame.
“I have to see My Lord… Theo.”
“Everything will be fine after you get some good rest.”
Just once…
Arzeletta refused the pill Theogrim was putting in her mouth and shook her head. He put his fingers all the way to her tongue and did not take them out until the pill had all melted.
“I love you, Rzel.”
Sleep came rushing in like an ebb tide. In her fading consciousness, Arzeletta heard Theogrim’s voice.
“…Forever.”
The last thing she saw before her eyes closed was the tears shimmering in his beautiful violet eyes, which were looking at her.
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