Chapter 190
His desires were worthless, so he did not have the confidence to go on living calmly after swallowing such a noble life. The immense fulfillment and pleasure he would feel after swallowing her and making her one with himself were not even worth one small joy she would feel while living on.
And yet, he had dared think such arrogant thoughts. With a woman so lovable because she was alive before him…
He had promised to make her happy, but could she really be happy beside a bastard who thought such terrible things?
“Sia, open your eyes. F**k, Sia.”
Segleninde’s face crumpled as his body trembled softly. He called the name of the woman lying limp as if she had lost consciousness, over and over, patting her cheek and shaking her shoulders.
He was afraid her pale, closed eyelids would never open again. A woman who had taught a being who had lived devouring the lives of all things that lived what it felt like to panic at the thought that a faint breath might soon stop, was dying. It seemed exactly like that.
Seized by a despairing imagination, he buried his face in Cynthia’s shoulder and whimpered.
“I was wrong…”
The moment he murmured it in a cracked voice, sobbing softly as if making a confession, a miracle occurred. An arm as slender as a spring branch slowly moved and gently wrapped around his head.
Was this the final farewell before a human soul left its body? Priests who believed in something called religion said that the souls of good humans became angels. Was she, too, embracing this ugly and terrible being with such warmth before leaving to become an angel?
No, he could not let her go like this. Absolutely not. All the fates that allowed her to remain in this world, and even this body, had been created by him. Therefore, her soul was his as well. He hugged Cynthia tightly around the waist, as if to bind her soul from the roots with a powerful force, and shook his head.
“No, don’t go. Don’t leave me behind, Sia. Please…!”
As if answering his desperate cry, a weak hand gently stroked his back. The angel let a thin breath flow by his ear like a feather and finally whispered in a beautiful voice, as if knocking on heaven’s door.
“What are you even saying, over and over…”
Cynthia was dumbfounded as she kept watching Segleninde’s behavior.
It wasn’t as if this was the first or second time she had collapsed after they endulged themselves in each other. She had already been on the verge of fainting right after such intense intercourse, so she had only been resting a little, and she wished he would understand how she felt, having to see her husband crying pitifully and begging her not to die.
Only then did Segleninde seem to realize Cynthia was not dead, and he lifted his eyes, brimming with clear tears, to look at her. Thinking that even his crying face was beautiful, since he was her husband, she gently stroked his cheeks, already deeply marked with tear tracks.
If he had kept failing to come to his senses, she had planned to lock him up and keep doing the same thing until his memories returned, but fortunately, he regained them faster than expected. Of course, judging by his reaction earlier, Segleninde would probably have been happy even if she had done that.
“Even when you had no memories, even when you went back to the time when you only knew how to kill people, you still ended up loving me, Sellie. Right? So of course I have no choice but to love you.”
Only then did strength leave Segleninde’s body. Instead of pulling her strongly into his arms as if he would never let go, he held her gently with hands that had stopped trembling and let out a sigh mixed with relief. Now at ease, he smiled faintly.
Yes. In the end, he too had become a being harmless to her. He was able to.
“Because you’re lovable, even the me from back when I didn’t know you ended up loving you…”
Cynthia suddenly felt as if the pulse throughout her body was tangling, and she lightly punched his shoulder with her fist. Even after being hit, he seemed pleased, and a completely relaxed smile spread across his face. That alone was enough.
The two held each other for a long time.
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