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Chapter 54

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His transparent violet eyes, always so beautiful, now glittered with madness.

“You said it yourself, didn’t you? That there’s no difference between you sleeping with Seikan and me not touching you at all.”

Helion’s sneering expression was so unlike anything I’d ever seen, it stole my breath.

“If touching you or not makes no difference, then not touching you is a great disadvantage to me. Wouldn’t you agree?”

Fingers, red and raw from frantically working at the ropes, brushed against my cheek, burning hot.

***

Helion’s thumb, which had been caressing Adelina’s cheek, now traced her lips. Her skin was undeniably smooth, slippery even, yet the touch felt like a thousand tiny thorns, likely due to the way she stared back at him, filled with apprehension.

“W-wait…”

“Why? Are you going to beg me to use honorifics again?”

Adelina bit her delicate lip.

“You know, it might actually be quite exciting if you pleaded with me using formal speech.” Helion’s words grew increasingly vulgar. “His Highness the Crown Prince must have seen it all. You, crying and begging to stop.”

At his taunting words, Adelina pressed her lips together like a tightly closed clamshell. His voice rose, fueled by his frustration. “He saw you n4ked beneath him, crying and pleading!”

“Hngh!”

With a single tug, her tense, slender body was easily pulled upward by the front of her dress. Yet, Helion’s hand trembled as he held her. Despite his deliberate actions, forcing himself upon her, his heart shattered into a million pieces as he looked into her wide, frightened eyes.

I didn’t want to hold you like this.

I love you. I have from the moment we met. From the moment you reached out to me, saying my eyes were so beautiful you wanted to see them up close, asking if I would come closer.

People say my goal is to be the nation’s hero, a glorious paladin.

They’re all wrong. My only goal is you. It’s always been you.

The welling emotions spilled over, hot tears blurring his vision.

Why don’t you understand my heart? Why? You’re everything to me, but why do you always turn away with a smile? Why are you always looking somewhere else, somewhere I can’t see?

Like your body is here, but your heart belongs to another world… why…?

“Helion…”

His vision blurred completely as a tear escaped, landing on Adelina’s pale cheek. She had been struggling against him, twisting her body to avoid his touch, but now she seemed startled by his tears.

Her hands were bound tightly behind her back, the ropes leaving angry red marks on her wrists. Her ankles, too, bore the evidence of their restraints. Her clothes were half-torn, the result of Helion’s rough attempts to undress her.

Her body was a canvas of bruises and bite marks, a testament to the other men who had claimed her. Despite her own precarious situation, Adelina’s eyes softened with pity at the sight of Helion’s tears.

“Then why…?”

If you’re going to look at me with such sorrow over a single tear, then why? Why did you say you never wanted to see me again? Why?

“Helion.”

At the sound of her gentle voice, another tear tracked down his cheek.

“Lina, I don’t understand. I don’t understand how to have you.”

“….”

“Money, status, glory… I could have it all, but I still can’t have you. I want you so badly I’m going mad, but what do I have to do to make you mine?”

At Helion’s anguished cry, Adelina bit her red lip and turned her head away. Her inability to answer his desperate plea sent a chill through him.

That’s right. In the end, that’s what you are to me.

An oasis at the end of an eternal desert. Something I must endlessly pursue, but can never truly possess.

A beautiful turquoise sea, knowing that each sip will only deepen my thirst, yet unable to resist.

“Then…” Helion murmured, his voice dry and emotionless, a stark contrast to his tear-streaked face. He yanked at Adelina’s bodice, tearing it open.

He gripped her shoulders, holding her still as she cried out and tried to shrink away from him. Helion’s gaze swept over her body. 

It was alluring, covered in the marks left by Reynard and the Crown Prince. The smooth slope of her shoulders, the elegant line of her collarbone, the delicate curve of her neck that stirred a cruel desire within him. Her full br3asts, forming a beautiful curve, sent a jolt of arovsal through him. 

 

Helion devoured her slender figure with his eyes, a figure that remained lean despite her healthy appetite, thanks to her constant activity. The sight of the flat plane of her stomach below her narrow waist seemed to urge his aching core onward. Enter her. Take her.

“There’s no reason not to.”

One hot summer day, he had seen her with her wide priestly sleeves rolled up, her arms bare. That night, Helion had his first wet dream.

One hot summer day, he had seen her with her wide priestly sleeves rolled up, her arms bare. That day, Helion had his first wet dream. Sleepless nights of self-reproach followed. Then, worried by his pale complexion, Adelina had patted his back. The soft press of her br3asts against him had caused an instant er3ction. 

The boy who had spilled countless seeds onto the handkerchief she had given him, worried about his excessive sweating, had now grown into a powerful man, unmatched in strength.

Adelina, abducted by his father in a twisted act of affection, was now alone with him in a secluded villa hidden deep within the woods.

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