What I Gained by Giving My Body - Chapter 3.11

“Th-this kind of thing…… you don’t have to…….”

At those words, Roxias, who looked up to stare at her, appeared utterly expressionless for a man performing foreplay. His coldly piercing gaze clearly carried a warning. At that gaze, Caitlyn had no choice but to clamp her mouth shut again.

With obsessed hands and mouth, Roxias touched every single part of Caitlyn’s body. Caitlyn came to learn that when her side was stimulated, her legs would involuntarily tremble and spread, and she realized that when her b*****s were stimulated with his fingertips rather than his mouth, sparks would fly before her eyes. The wonder was brief, as anxiety soon washed over Caitlyn.

Roxias continued only with the foreplay and didn’t seem to have any intention of moving on to the actual act. Caitlyn made a decision. If she didn’t take action now, the Roxias who was being strange today might not hold her at all. She lowered her head and took Roxias’s stiffly e***t c**k into her mouth. She was clumsily mimicking Roxias’s foreplay.

It was so overwhelming that she only lightly licked the head of his c**k, but the reaction was explosive. Roxias pinned her against the wall, then picked her up and threw her onto the bed.

She was thrown onto a soft duvet, but it was hard to feel comfortable. Because Roxias immediately spread her legs wide and inserted his dark red c**k without any warning. A slab of flesh of a size she could never get used to even with repeated acts split her slit.

Neither made a sound. Caitlyn suppressed the groans that wanted to burst out by biting the sheet. It wasn’t just because of Roxias’s order to keep her mouth shut. It was simply to hide, even a little, the fact that she was feeling something from such an act.

But Roxias would surely know. There was no way he wouldn’t notice Caitlyn’s body convulsing. Perhaps because her inner walls tightened, his c**k grew even larger, and the pressure Caitlyn felt grew even more intense. He also seemed unable to contain his lust, as he pushed his c**k all the way in without checking Caitlyn’s condition and then crushed her as if pinning her down.

Thus, Caitlyn got what she wanted. The act that would allow her to finish her deal with Roxias Akbar even one day earlier.

But she couldn’t feel any joy or sense of accomplishment. Because she realized that Roxias did not kiss her lips until the very end. As if he were afraid that the moment her lips parted, she would again look like a remnant of his old lover.

‘It has nothing to do with me.’

After the act was over, Caitlyn, submerged in warm water with fragrant rose petals floating in it, tried hard to think.

‘Even if he continues to think of me as that woman, nothing changes.’

Even though she knew it wasn’t true, Caitlyn repeated it to herself. Because if it weren’t so, her situation of having to continue sharing her body with Roxias would feel too miserable.

Suddenly, a shadow loomed. Caitlyn raised her head slowly. As expected, Roxias was looking down at her. His sharp golden eyes felt as if they were scrutinizing her just like yesterday. Caitlyn sank deeper into the water. She wanted to escape that gaze.

“……You look just like a nymph like that.”

“A nymph?”

“Yes. A nymph among the flowers.”

Now Caitlyn knew what a nymph was. The pronunciation was similar to an ugly imp, but in reality, it was a beautiful nature fairy, the opposite of an imp. Perhaps her knowledge was transferring to Caitlyn the more she dreamed; after waking up from sleep, such small pieces of knowledge would be in her head. As if they had been her knowledge from the beginning.

So Caitlyn was afraid. That one day, she and Cassandra would truly become one body. That she wouldn’t know where Cassandra began and where she herself ended. But for now, she had no choice but to take that risk. If she were alone, it might be different, but Caitlyn now had two precious people whose futures depended on her.

Roxias placed his hand on the surface of the water. Caitlyn wanted to run away, but she felt as if she would be pulled right into his arms if she stood up from the tub. The rose petals clung to Roxias’s strong hands. Unlike humans, these petals seemed to recognize that Roxias was a god.

“Is there something you wish for?”

Roxias’s answer did not come. Caitlyn grew a little bewildered at his actions, as he continued to create ripples on the surface and scatter the petals. It was even more so when he raised his head to look at her again.

An intense golden gaze beat against her face. The more it did, the more Caitlyn shrank back. Because the thought that this man…… might suddenly change wouldn’t leave her head. But no such thing happened, and Roxias turned and left again. As if his coming to that spot in the first place had not been intentional.