Chapter 63
Irene blankly stared at the crackling, burning flames.
Idris constantly glanced sideways with anxious eyes, checking her mood. This was not the time to be distracted or not by their closely pressed bodies once again. By all indications, Irene’s atmosphere was unusual.
‘What is the problem this time.’
In terms of common sense, there was no reason for her to burst into such anger over someone else’s affairs, so it seemed his story had touched a sore spot. Idris pondered as he dwelled over Irene’s words one by one.
‘Is it a problem that I am helpless? Or the fact that I do not hate or resist them because they are ‘family’?’
Whichever it was, it amounted to provoking Irene’s anger because of a half-truth lie. It is enough to drive him mad.
The murderous intent of Irene, which he felt for the first time in a while, was overwhelming. Even though that arrow subtly bypassed him, it was beyond chilling, feeling as if he would be crushed and burst. An overwhelming difference in status is felt.
Idris slowly closed and opened his eyes as he continued his heavy breathing. He tries his best to settle his heart calmly. He must settle this somehow.
My wretched father, my beloved younger siblings, and the great Mater. Please, grant me strength.
“Well, in truth, it seems more correct to say I had no choice but to turn a blind eye because I had no way to cause a disturbance or do anything else.”
At that moment, Irene’s lowered head slowly turned back toward Idris. The black pupils, which were not human, noticeably dilating and then gradually shrinking, along with her bright red irises, were chilling anew.
Seeing Irene, whose emotions seemed to have subsided slightly, Idris continued speaking while trying his best to appear as if nothing were wrong.
“My mother was merely a cast-out child, but she was still born into a prominent family. It was impossible for someone like me, a mere commoner, to do anything against such a house. On the contrary, it would have been perfect for me to come to harm.”
“……I suppose, sometimes there are things in this world that cannot be helped.”
‘Is it done? Is she convinced?’
The anger that had been visibly surging seemed to have settled considerably. However, even before he could lower his guard, a laugh that was unfamiliar to the point of being cynical returned.
“Still, honestly, I do not understand. With abilities like yours, Mr. Idris, I think you could have gone abroad or done something similar.”
I had guessed it, but she definitely knows I am a knight. I did not know she would mention it so openly like this. I am not sure if one implicit rule disappearing is indeed for a good reason.
By the way, what nonsense is going abroad. I am of imperial blood in my own right, so the moment I flee, it is obvious I will be tracked down on a massive scale immediately.
Furthermore, I had bad memories regarding foreign countries.
A nightmare-like attempt by the Imperial family comes to mind, trying to promote peace by joining him with one of the princesses of a country they were on bad terms with. Among those, the one with the highest probability was Orihen, where a blood-crazed Crown Prince would start a war whenever he was bored.
In name he would be the princess’s husband, but in reality, he is a mere hostage. It was extremely fortunate that it was discarded due to the danger if it were discovered that I am an illegitimate child. Even though it was a long time ago, it is dizzying once more.
“It was not difficult to that extent, so it was acceptable. It was not to the level of trying to kill me. In the first place, I did not have any intention of starting a family. Although it was a bit lonely because I was ostracized by my family.”
“Is that so? Then, if your relatives had gone as far as trying to kill you, Mr. Idris, would something have been different?”
“Then, of course, I would have fled at the risk of my life. At that time, regardless of family or anything, must one not survive first?”
“……Ahahaha! That is very much like you, Mr. Idris.”
Irene finally laughed brightly. Although her gaze was still deeply sunken, it was distinctly different from earlier when she looked ready to slice someone apart. It felt as though her mood had settled considerably.
‘That was a close call. I even threw a risky move, and fortunately, it worked.’
On the other hand, he was merely grateful that she had unleashed a murderous intent capable of cooling down a thousand years of lust.
“I agree with those words too. Regardless of the way one lives, in the end, it is important to have one’s feet planted on this beautiful earth and to breathe, is it not?”
“Those are good words. I agree as well.”
Knowing that, she imprisons me and tests the waters on whether to kill me or let me live?
He had long known she was shameless, but she was indeed a formidable opponent.
Meanwhile, Irene giggled as she looked at Idris, whose tone was calm as always. She could not know what he was thinking, but it was not a particularly important matter to her.
Irene leaned heavily against him, hugging his arm more tightly. It was the peaceful warmth of a person that she felt with her entire body for the first time in years.
“You know, Mr. Idris.”
“Yes, please speak.”
“I think about this constantly, but you seem very mature, Mr. Idris. Always calm, mature…….”
Unlike herself, who was nothing more than a girl still frozen in the nightmare of the past, he seemed like a true adult.
“I think it would have been wonderful if I had a composed and calm personality like you, Mr. Idris. Passing things over even when bad things happen, saying, ‘That can happen.’”
“……I do not sympathize at all, however……. I am on the side where those kinds of emotions are abundant.”
“Well. You do not appear that way at all.”
‘Even now, when he must be in a bad mood, he just stays still with no expression whatsoever. An ordinary person could not endure it.’
She envied that strong mental power. That face that remains unshaken even when a disaster is difficult to handle is beside him or when he recalls a difficult family history. A side that she does not possess.
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